I fucking hate this whole situation! I really thought about handing in that letter before work, I mean really thought it through. I asked to see my HR Manager privately and I asked if it may be possible that in September I just work purely front of house and not in the kitchen and he said yes. At the end of the day I don’t want to be jobless but I also don’t want to work with my head chef so this seems like the perfect solution, he won’t be my boss anymore.
So I’m there chopping veggies and my headchef says hello at the food service station window thing, I ignore him and carry on working and he chats with the demi chef through the window. My headchef tells the demi he can leave early and leave me if he wants, I’ve never done food service on my own on a Friday but I couldn’t exactly say ‘no i’m not okay with that.’ That whole shift he kept lingering around making me feel awkward, sending me texts like “why r u being so off?”, “I wish u weren’t so moody”, “fine be a bitch”, “oi, watch ur potions sizes”. He told me to clean the fridges out and not to leave until I have, something he has never made me do before. I only just manged to clean down the kitchen by 10pm (I usually leave and on my way home by 9:30) because of all the orders I did and I was the only one there doing friday kitchen clean down. I then begin to remove the contents of all the fridges and begin to scrub, the pot-wash guy was asking why I was doing it (because this is something I am never asked to do!) helped me. Halfway through cleaning the fridges my head chef comes in like “what are you doing Curtis?” and I say “what you requested” and he says “come on, you know me well enough to know I was joking, you can go” I honestly think he just said that because the pot-wash guy was there. He then asked for a hug and I said no.
I feel like he may make working with him the most unpleasant experience for me while he’s still my boss because what? because I refused to have sex with him, because me and his ex are on speaking terms and the proper truth came out, because i’m leaving the kitchen, because I won’t let him use me again. I have no one at work to talk to about this because every bloody loves ______ and the fact he’s worked there for 3 years. I just want out! I want nothing to do with this man and I want this to be over. I am literally crying as I type this. I just need to hold back until September.